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Nariel Surana master post

Nariel Surana (Dragon Age). 
Healer. Circle Mage. Grey Warden. Died at Fort Drakon. They call her ‘The Hero of Ferelden’. She’d be horrified that anyone thought her heroic. Or even that they thought of her at all.

4.) How vain is your character? Do they find themselves attractive? 

Pre-Redcliffe, Nariel would have described herself as ‘pretty’, though not exceptionally so. She attributed any admiring glances to her race, and the generally held idea that elves are sexually attractive to humans. An incident at Ostagar, in which she was accosted by a soldier who assumed an unarmed female elf must surely be either a servant, prostitute or camp follower, only reinforced her perception that her attractiveness was intrinsically linked to her race. 

Nariel experienced a crisis of conscience on encountering Jowan again in Redcliffe, and became consumed with guilt and self-doubt. She blamed herself for imagined ‘crimes’ ranging from the poisoning of Arl Eamon; the absence of Redcliffe’s army and the defeat at Ostagar; for Duncan’s death, and Cailan’s; for the civil war; and for Connor’s possession and the horrors at Redcliffe. Her mental condition was reflected in her physical decline and increasingly negative self image, although she always forced herself to dress properly, to dress her hair, to at least look presentable, because doing so was important to achieving their goal.

(What’s this all about? See Brenna Ce’Dria’s 30 Day Role-play Challenge master post!)

T-T Let me go back in time and love on Nariel! She obviously needs all the love anyone can give!